All the Feels, Biblical Truths, Confessions, Exposed Series, Lessons Learned

Invisible

When I was young girl (elementary and middle school age), I wished to be invisible. Like…farealzzz…fantasized about it. I remember daydreaming about how cool it would be to be invisible in a group of people to hear what they were saying, see their facial reactions, and watch them go about their plans not knowing I was watching. I wondered what, if anything, they would do differently. The idea of going undetected, 100% UNNOTICED, and completely insignificant to others so their behavior would be motive free, real, genuine. NEVER expecting or realizing being invisible would ever be considered a “negative” thing. Rather, a super power that could be used to change the world.

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Then one day…I grew up. I grew up to be a Christian wife, mother, employee, mistake-making, type-A, sarcastic, busy, driven, lonely, critical, sinful, struggler of a person who, at times, “felt invisible”.

There I was sitting in the church pew at Landmark Church, like I’ve done for many months and always felt so welcomed, loved, supported and safe…but this past Sunday for some reason…out of the blue…

I. FELT. ALONE.

INVISIBLE.

Insignificant.

Unknown.

No super power here…just a great divide and grand space between me and the next warm body so far down the pew, there wasn’t even a dilemma about whether to lean over to pass the basket or to stand up and walk it to the other side of the pew (yall know what I’m talking about). It was definitely a “stand up and walk it” space. That moment when you feel nothing more than an open space surrounding you…so expansive that you could build a small village on either side and still not impose on anyone’s personal space.

Next up…lunch…at a local restaurant…the saga continues. Just me and my sweet Ava Reese, standing in the “lobby area” patiently waiting to be seated. There are only 2 of us and free tables in view. Why does no one “see us” or acknowledge we are here and seat us at one of these open tables? STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. WAITING? Am I invisible? It seriously crossed my mind. Hungry, tired, worn from single mom life, I am anxious to be seated and order my food. We come here often (mostly just the two of us) and are usually seated pronto. So, WHY, today, does it seem as though I am invisible? I wanted to scream HELLOOOO!!!! We are here!!! We need a table!

Finally seated, it’s another “long span” of time before our order gets taken. WOW! I am tired. Weary. Worn. Lonely. Alone. Frustrated. Hungry. Irritable. What is it about today that seems to be a continual reel of the “Julie finally got her wish…she’s invisible” show.

Today…it was all about me. I felt alone. Discouraged. Unknown. INVISIBLE.

Can you imagine how alone, frustrated, discouraged, hungry, beaten down, insignificant, and INVISIBLE our Heavenly Father must feel at times when we turn our back on Him? Ignore His word. Close our eyes to His instruction. Busily excuse ourselves from His calling, and continue to bump Him down our “to-do” list?

Have you ever felt insignificant? alone? forgotten? INVISIBLE?

HE KNOWS HOW YOU FEEL!! OUR FATHER CAN RELATE. HE GETS IT. AND…

Beautiful artwork from my sweet friend Alyssa Long – LoveLetteringByLong 

It breaks His heart. He doesn’t EVER want us to feel alone or invisible. His word is sprinkled with dozens of reminders of how He remembers us and does not forget. When you need encouragement or a comforting reminder that HE SEES YOU…read these scriptures and seek out more!

Isaiah 49:15 – Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should have no compassion on the son of her womb? Even these may forget, yet I will not forget you.
Psalm 94:18-19 – I cried out, “I am slipping!” but your unfailing love, O Lord, supported me. When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.
Philippians 4:19 – And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.
Romans 5:8 – But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners.

Matthew 28:20 – Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.
Deuteronomy 31:6 – Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.

  • Single mama working 2 jobs with a sassy mouthed toddler and teenager…

        HE SEES YOU!

  • Husband working hard to provide for his family and loving a wife who complains and nags about not having a new car…

        HE SEES YOU!

  • Verbally abused mom and wife trying to protect her children and break the cycle…

        HE SEES YOU!

  • Young married couple surrounded by everyone having precious babies while they suffer in silence with infertility…

        HE SEES YOU!

  • Single woman struggling with the loss of a parent forced to deal with past issues and feeling hopeless…

        HE SEES YOU!

  • Teenage boy who seems to be an “overachiever” on the outside but struggles with negative self talk…

        HE SEES YOU!

  • Recovering addict working daily to “make it stick this time”…

        HE SEES YOU!

So…the next time you feel invisible…just like I did…take a moment…and STOP.

STOP! Look at all the people surrounding you. Notice the room temperature, smell or the weather and color of the sky. Listen to the laughter, voices, crying babies, nature or city noises. Soak it all in. Take the moment to indulge in your “aloneness” and embrace being invisible to everyone around you. AND then…commune and connect with God. OWN an intimate moment that NO ONE else can experience with you but HIM. Let Him breathe life into you. Reassure you. Calm you. Fill you. Give HIM a chance to lavishly pour into your empty soul, worn down spirit, and bankrupt emotions in a peaceful, private, perfect moment of “invisibleness”.

“You say I am loved, when I can’t feel a thing, You say I am strong, when I think I am weak, You say I am held, when I am falling short and WHEN I DON’T BELONG, OH YOU SAY I AM YOURS!!!! And I believe, oh I believe, what You say of me, I believe”…Lauren Daigle

EVERY TIME I hear this on the radio or we sing this at church, I ALWAYS lose it when the lyrics say “when I don’t belong, oh you say I am yours” and have tears streaming down my face.

WE ALL BELONG to HIM!! THAT MEANS YOU TOO!!! CLAIM YOUR MEMBERSHIP IN HIS FAMILY. CONFESS HIS NAME, SURRENDER YOUR WAYS, REPENT, BE IMMERSED IN BAPTISM WITH HIM AND RISE A NEW CREATION TO SERVE HIM AND POINT OTHERS TO HIM THE REST OF YOUR DAYS. 

the whole truth & nothing but,
jco

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